Radical

My husband has been in seminary for the last three years and he now has been called to a church....so we are now making a huge life change......
For the three years he has been in seminary, we have been asking alot of questions like what is church really all about?  what is the purpose of church?  what does Jesus REALLY want us to do here with this life He has given us???????????  So I am at a place with MANY questions and praying and waiting on answers!  We felt like we HAD to make a radical change 5 years ago when my husband's mother died of cancer, our best friend at the age of 28 died of cancer 6 months after being diagnosed and I had a miscarriage.  These all happened in a little over 1 year.  We knew at that moment that this life is short and SO meaningless if it is not focused 100% on Christ.  Everything in this world will be gone except for people!  They will be in eternity - heaven or hell and we felt like we needed to do something.  So now 5 years later and seminary behind us...I feel like if I don't constantly remind myself, I get real comfortable, real fast. 
The part where Pastor Platt talks about how we make Jesus into who we want him to be......whoa!!!  Totally convicting!  I have been thinking alot about how we can convince ourselves of so many things that are not true.  It scares me.  How do I know I am not fooling myself with any thought or idea?!?  Our minds are so powerful.  I heard Bill Mahr speak last night on Jay Leno with such conviction and anger about how religion is only for ignorant, needy people and the religious books were written by people who didn't know what germs were or that the earth revolved around the sun.  You could tell he was so sure of himself.  He would probably die for that truth.  I KNOW he is wrong (or do I???)!  Just kidding, but convictions can only take us to far depending on what they are based on and what their foundations are.  So many Christians have gone away from understanding the importance of God's Word.  how do we know who God is?  Who Christ is?  What Christ wants form us in this life?  The whole point of life?  Only if we read the one thing that He left for us: the Bible.  Maybe I am the only one who struggles with this.  I almost did not do this read-along because I had just said I needed to stop readinng other books and start getting into God's Word...stop reading about what others say about Him and see what He says about himself and what He wants me to know about Him.  I may be the only one who struggle with this....I don't think so though!!!  I am not a blogger so....thanks for reading! :-)